Guhhhh I have a big show tonight and I’ve been sick with nervousness for two full days. Every time I think about it my stomach and heart just go nuts on each other. It is not as important as I’m acting like, ugh! It’s just a chance to do some of my best material that I enjoy doing, for a theater full of people who want to laugh. There may be higher stakes, but the only way I can really “win” tonight is by having fun. Which I know I will. So this anxiety is a huge waste of time and health.
Anyway, in preparation for tonight, I took a break from smoking pot. I’ve only smoked two hits in the past 10 days, once for extreme nausea and once for being really angry and irritable over nothing— which really, is how I should be using my state-sanctioned medicine. As medicine, for real issues, not to bury a general sense of ennui (put there in the first place by smoking fun drugs all day every day, duhhhhh)
Here are some observations from 10 days with (almost) no weed.


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theatlantic:
The Gay Guide to Wedded Bliss
Research finds that same-sex unions are happier than heterosexual marriages. What can gay and lesbian couples teach straight ones about living in harmony?
Read more. [Image: Gail Albert Halaban]
Same-sex spouses, who cannot divide their labor based on preexisting gender norms, must approach marriage differently than their heterosexual peers. From sex to fighting, from child-rearing to chores, they must hammer out every last detail of domestic life without falling back on assumptions about who will do what. In this regard, they provide an example that can be enlightening to all couples. Critics warn of an institution rendered “genderless.” But if a genderless marriage is a marriage in which the wife is not automatically expected to be responsible for school forms and child care and dinner preparation and birthday parties and midnight feedings and holiday shopping, I think it’s fair to say that many heterosexual women would cry “Bring it on!”](http://25.media.tumblr.com/d9079a800a2ec384359bee436e7e08e2/tumblr_mn9cxyEWSd1qcokc4o1_500.jpg)




